I hate you because you are successful

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copyright @Culpeo

It is a confession less than a post. Many of us are living a moderate life. A life with no great achievements and when we see someone who is more successful than us, we start hating him. The same happened to me.

I am a simple guy from India who has dreams, dreams of being famous, dreams of being a writer and dreams of being an inspiration. But sometimes in life, there comes a point when you get fed up of life, everything seems so wrong. You feel like there is no god and there are no miracles. The same I was feeling at that time. I am a hobbyist game developer who creates game for fun.

When I heard about True Valhalla’s success. I really got happy. I thought if he can do then anyone can do it. So I start finding ways to earn money online. But everything I did went wrong and I didn’t earn a penny. I used to read his income reports but instead of getting motivated i started feeling jealous and this jealously leaded to hatred. Hatred for just a simple reason, “He was successful, I wasn’t”. I even sent Ozdy (A guy who was not satisfied from his book) a message to send his book to me. Thank god he didn’t respond.

Days passed. I started living my life moderately without passion. One day I wrote a poem (Another hobby of mine) and posted it on the Facebook and a friend of me, messaged me, ” I am feeling jealous, you write good”. I laughed and replied, “Try again…you will become better than me”  In the night when I was laying and his words came to my mind. They hit my heart. I realized how I was hating a person I barely know, and just for a simple reason. Instead of appreciating him I was wasting my time in hatred.

I felt peace in my heart at that moment. Felt like I was free, like a bird. I opened his website and read his latest income report and close the website with a motivation. I started writing my book, “Game maker for beginners“. Many times I felt low again, felt like I should leave this book but this time instead of giving up I listened to motivational speeches, watched motivational videos, read other people’s success stories.
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I realized hating someone is a very bad idea. Because it hurts you more than anyone else. It will make you feel weak and inferior. Hate is too great a burden to bear. So instead of hating someone, learn from them. You don’t have to love everyone but you should be kind to everybody.

After many months of hard work, i published my book. I had lots of hope from it. Some users got issue with my book because of many errors like grammar mistakes, format, use of copyright material etc. Few thought I stole Game maker default tutorials. It was not their mistake. They were mine. I started reformatting it. But now I was shattered. I was thinking I was wasting my time. Nobody will read it. I stopped the progress. But after few months, i got my first customer. On that day, I realized that success doesn’t comes in a day.You have to work hard for it. My first customer didn’t like the book mainly because of the grammar mistakes. I refunded her money. This time I don’t want to leave it incomplete. I reformatted my book, replaced all the sprites and launched it again. In two weeks I got three sales and who are happy from my book. I know it’s too little to be called a success. But its a success for me.

From all this, I learnt many lessons.
-Never hate someone, always learn from them.
-Learn from your mistakes.
-There will always be people out there, who will be willing to help you.
– Help someone too in any way you can.
-We all have something special in us, but not necessary it is the same thing that we need for your dream.
– Try, fail and repeat untill you succeed.

I want to thank everyone who helped me. Thanks to Lonewolf, Round for their valuable help and advice.

Unluckystudio

Unluckystudio

At last, I want to say, “All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get”.

Sujit Yadav

Sujit Kumar Yadav is a tech savvy who loves to explore about new technology. He is also passionate about animation and game development. He loves to write poems and to draw. He is a learner of life who loves travelling, meeting new people and dancing.

Comments ( 11 )
  1. Venky
    April 10, 2014 at 2:32 pm
    Reply

    Hi, Sujit. Nice Article. Thanks. Keep up the good work

    • Sujit Yadav
      April 10, 2014 at 5:00 pm
      Reply

      Thanks Mate!! Hope you keep reading the blog:)

  2. Monster Brain
    October 19, 2014 at 5:38 pm
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    Nicely written… I can pretty much relate to it. When you are low and you see other people’s success and sometimes you justify that their games are not much good but get a lot of money or downloads (justice trap), it can happen. I also had felt jealousy for successful developers, hatred rising up within myself. But after a while i realized there is no point in hating them, its just deteriorating myself. Just wasting my own time and motivation. Now i love them, learn from them, become motivated by them. Read their blog and find they find others too like we find others 🙂 … Let them make money/fame, let us concentrate on making ours 😉

    • Sujit Yadav
      October 21, 2014 at 9:56 am
      Reply

      Very well said. Hatred do harm only. We should focus on improving ourselves. Take inspiration from them.

  3. Abdur Rehman
    March 25, 2016 at 5:34 pm
    Reply

    When I was reading this post I was thinking it’s written for me your 100 percent right. Please expecting more from this site. Thanks for your help for great contents

    • Sujit Yadav
      March 26, 2016 at 9:11 am
      Reply

      Ohh Thanks a lot Abdur…I am too busy so stopped updating the blog…

      • Abdur Rehman
        March 26, 2016 at 2:51 pm
        Reply

        Hope you will soon post some new stuff i already bookmarked this blog. Thanks

  4. Mauricio
    March 2, 2017 at 1:45 am
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    True Valhalla is a scummer.
    He interviewed a hacker at Yoyos… he does not deserves any money. He was banned from yo yo and had his adsense account suspended.
    https://productforums.google.com/forum/#!topic/adsense/EMe4tqEkQq8

    Look at this hack scandal
    Hacking scandals Edit
    In March 2013 it was discovered that the GameMaker Community forum, which is owned and operated by YoYo Games, had been hacked unknowningly for an unknown period of time, allowing the hacker to gain access to accounts and personal information including passwords and other data.[36][37] A person claiming to be the hacker later contacted a moderator of the forum, True Valhalla, and was subsequently interviewed on the moderator’s independent news website Game Maker Blog.[38] In the interview, the hacker claimed that he had stolen over 221,000 passwords which he had decrypted, and that he had sold them to at least one person for the purpose of exploiting Runescape accounts. He also claimed that forum administrator Trollsplatterer enabled the attack when his own website was hacked, which resulted in his GameMaker Community forum password being compromised. True Valhalla was removed from his moderating position soon after publishing the interview though other reasons were quoted as the reason for the demotion.[39] YoYo Games did not notify users who had their details compromised, a move which was criticized by some members of the community.
    at http://yoyo-games.wikia.com/wiki/Game_Maker

  5. Sujit Yadav
    June 8, 2017 at 11:06 am
    Reply

    That could be right.

  6. Ambika yadav
    August 29, 2020 at 6:25 pm
    Reply

    hey….. thanku very MUch for ur efforts it really helpful i am using ur game asset links for creating something .

    • Sujit Yadav
      August 31, 2020 at 12:00 pm
      Reply

      Welcome Ambika. Keep creating great games.

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